We woke up Saturday morning to thunder and rain! Something that is extremely rare in
Southern California in the summer – but oh so fun! I love the rain. Some get sick of it, some get depressed, but I am filled with joy when it is cloudy and rains. I hear God’s power in the thunder that shakes the earth. I see God’s control and timing in when He chooses it to rain – like on a Saturday in August in Southern California. And I see God’s amazing love for me because He knew I needed to see the rain on Saturday.
I had another anxiety attach last week. I have been doing so well and although I feel like I’m holding off anxiety at arm’s length, I’m making progress and feeling more like myself. That’s why Tuesday totally took me off guard. I was taken to a new doctor who prescribed me a new medication and I had a horrible reaction to it. After several days of taking the meds and feeling worse than my craziest moment, I started to feel totally hopeless. Then it rained.
As I ran outside to watch the rain drops in the pool I heard God say, “Only I can make it rain Raeanne. Only I can make it rain.”
I felt like it was God’s love for me, telling me all was going to be ok and He would bring the rain in my life when I need it. He is all powerful, more than doctors or medicines and He will bring the rain in my life when I need it.
And remember the verse my children memorized last week?
"The Lord Your God is with you. He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you. He will quiet you with His love. He will rejoice over you with singing.”
Oh how those words have repeated in my head over and over again these past few days.
I am loved.
Saturday night the doctored ordered me to discontinue the medication – my body was not tolerating it. I immediately felt a weight lifted off me and returned to “normal” within a few hours. Now a new journey begins of what next? But more and more I’m traveling with confidence that only God can make it rain and He will bring that rain exactly when I need it.