Macky Bear 7

From the moment you were born little baby boy, I knew something was different.

You stole my heart like non other and I just couldn't keep my lips off your cheeks!

 You are such a special boy Mack.

You're heart is tender and sensitive.

You have a deep desire for everyone to know Jesus and you pray earnestly for your friends.

You are kind and compassionate.

 "I want to make my own Valentine's for my class Mommy.  

And I'm going to make Natalia's the most special because she has cancer."

You have a deep understanding of God and His grace and mercy.

You are quick to say you're sorry and quick to forgive.

As I sat at the computer one evening, long after you were asleep, 

I heard someone come in behind me.  You were crying.

"What's the matter buddy?"

"Mommy, remember when Georgia was at swim practice last year and you brought me goldfish for a snack?  You asked me if you could have some and I didn't share.

I'm so sorry Mommy."

As you lay in bed at night, you contemplate your days and the regrets that are brought to mind hit your little heart and you go to make things right.

Macky, you have a sensitive heart that desires purity and God will use you in mighty ways.

You make me laugh all the time.

You are so quick witted and funny!

Your confidence is a gift that allows you the freedom to be who God has made you to be.

Your sissys love you soooo much, sometimes perhaps a little too much!

But the day is quickly approaching when you will tower over them and take great care of them!

"Macky, do you want an ice cream sandwich?"

"YES!  But let's wait until sissys get home so they can have one too."

You are selfless and have always wanted to include your sisters in all the joys of life.

You're 7 today!

A new year is before you.

I pray that God protects your tender heart and continues to draw you closer to Himself.

I pray that your compassion for others deepens as you grow up in a world that desperately needs to know God's love.

I pray that your sense of humor brightens up the days of all you come in contact with.

I pray that you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are loved and that 

God has great plans for you.

Happy Birthday Mack!

7

Today my baby girls turn 7!

 

 

When we finally got to bring them home from the hospital, it was a like a dream come true for me.

They were my little dolls and I would dress them up, several times a day, and take hundreds of pictures of them!

They were so tiny.

I truly loved every moment of newborn land!  Even the 1am feedings were exciting and new.

I can honestly say that it was the most magical season of my life thus far.

 

 

Many things have remained the same.

Like dressing them up and taking hundreds of photos!

 

 

But many things have changed as well!

 Now photo shoots require bribes!

 

Being woken up at 1am isn't that great!

 

And just the other day I was telling my mother that if someone would have told me that being a mother was so stressful, I'm not sure I would have done it!

Why doesn't anyone tell you how hard it is?!

 

 

These tiny, beautiful babies that are now 7 year olds have challenged me,

pushed me to my limits, brought out some ugly characteristics that I never knew I had, and forced me to be present in every moment of life.

What I say, what I do, how I react in the moment - they are watching it all and reflecting it right back to me.

Oh, I never knew how truly selfish I was until I became a mother!

They are quick to forgive me as I fail time and again.

"It's ok Mommy."

They extend unconditional love after I've lost my temper.

"I want you to hold my hand Mommy, because I love you."

They remind me that my worth is not found in perfection, but in truth.

"You are the best Mommy I could ever have."

Being a Mommy for the past 7 years has been extremely difficult.

But I can confidently say that God has used 2 of His most precious refining tools in my life to reshape me and make me more into who He wants me to be.

I have a long way to go. 

 But I'm thankful that these precious refining tools will be my companions as long as I live and I will continue to grow and change as God uses them to make me more into His image.

 

Happy Birthday baby girls!

You are just as beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside.

You both are uniquely gifted to make a difference in this world, starting with me and my world!

You will always be my tiny dolls and are still the best gift I've ever been given.
 I will always love you both so very much.

xoxoxo

Moma